I AM BACKED!

May good things start coming along

2011-03-03T04:46:00.001+08:00

Putting the past behind and looking into the future. Hopefully will get a job soon and put all my energy into work and not waste time thinking of useless things! Aja aja whithing!!

Been catching up with cooking.. what for tonight?? Hmmmm

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Adios

2011-02-21T03:51:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to the past and may our paths never meet again for my weak heart aint gonna survive another round.

I aint generous enough to wish you best of luck so do hope the world bring out the worst in you. Kidding. But i'll make sure tt my future will be better without you.

Whighting!

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所以说。。。

2011-02-11T13:50:00.003+08:00

珍惜眼前人。。。
我出曾经委婉拒绝了个男孩的热情。
殊不知他几年内已告别了男孩变成为了个满有魅力的男人。但他一不是个唾手可得的好男人了。做了个梦，看着他背影拖着各神秘女子离开，我无可奈何。只能怪有缘无份。
新的一年里，我绝对不会再对感情转牛角尖，我会珍惜眼前人。在着也顺道祝福我的国中好友，婚姻美满。

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Forward Looking

2010-12-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

School life is officially over now... While everyone is looking forward to a new semester.. I have one to look forward to..

It's time to really settle down and look for a proper job and build a career.. Wish me luck!

And down the years.. to settle down with a family and all..

Ficker-minded?

2010-08-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

I had a weird dream.. Or rather something unexpected.. I always believed that dreams are just portaryals of our sub-concious mind.. That is, dreams are built on your sub-concious thoughts... And then I dreamt of him.. When i have not been thinking about him.. MUCH... =X... Or at least i tot I've made up my mind for the other.. So is it that i'm being ficker? OR is it that I haven't been truthful to my heart?

Oh wells.. then i should really do something to forget him.. I'm never gonna see him again isn't it? He is so many hours flight away afterall.. =(

Back from Korea!

2010-08-10T01:34:00.001+08:00

After 6 weeks in korea... I am finally backed!!! However, i'm missing all my friends that i made there!! Some from NUS SIM.. And also those from ard the world.. Korea US UK Germany Hong Kong Japan Canada etc etc.. i'll miss everyone of you....

And my brain is all f**ked up because of him.. Why did he not accept my fb invite?? Did he not see it?? Or is he just not interested in making friends with me?? Arghhhh!!! I know nth gonna happened between us but why cant i just be able to check u out on fb at times??? I shall stop thinking of him... arghhhhh

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Conclusion... I am not suited to study abroad.. AT LEAST NOT HERE

2010-07-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

I can only sum it up by saying that I'm not liking it here as of now...

I cant belief i'm coming to a summer school to cram.. I dont even study that hard in SG.. I feel like i'm DYING! Getting sick and all.. ROARSSSS.

I just wanna slp my summer through... =(

Nightmare on Mel Street...

2010-06-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

LOL.. Well, i meant ELM of cos.. just that i incidentally realized it's the same 3 letter as mel when i was typing on her wall to asking her to watch... lol

It was not too bad... Though I felt that the old 1 was better.. but of cos if u consider the years into account... with current technology, CG and all definitely has improved but I tot the pace was better previously.. more SCARY... lol...

BUT STILL! Nightmare on elm street was one of the best classic horror movie US has made... =)

Thumbs UP!

Updates

2010-06-12T02:52:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating for like the longest time.. Not in terms of
actual duration since there were times that took longer.. But rather
in terms of what that have been gone through my head n not pin-ed
down.. Afterall, been busy with stuff... Results were not great but oh
wells... Work was short but pleasent.. Had a great time... Bought a
new desktop cos my laptop KO-ed...

Maybe i was hoping too much... Maybe i am too free... maybe we were
just a pair of parallel lines that will never cross.. Why do i hope
that there could be aways weaving of paths the way i want.. I shld
stop wanting to take control.. N admit that there's 平行线...

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Updates

2010-03-16T03:27:00.000+08:00

Oh wells.. Havent been blogging lately.. But many things happened..

Like on weds, i was late for tutorials 1st time this sem!! Nth to be
proud of but just mentioning.. Met julia 4 dinner at ps.. Was thr to
help my bro print some stuff.. And while waiting i saw these super
duper big strawberries at the mart.. I din dare to take photos
though.. Well, n i had starbucks!!! Totally missed it.. Been trying to
save abit more!! Well, the reason to having it was cos i managed an
ave mark even though i missed the 2nd page of my finance midterm
though i am still v upset over it...

What else... Hmm.. I din get my korea exchange but my dad agreed to
pay for the fees.. So i can go if i want to... But i am still
uncertain..

Jia yous!!!

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Home... And i am so Dead!

2010-02-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Anyways, was talking about the You're the man show.. I found the photos of the guys i talked about.. hahha

Dennis (My no. 1 choice)

Brian (No. 2.. He looks better in specs!)

Gusti (No.3 The guy i saw today)

Eric ( I keep wanting to name him leon.. Cos he really reminds me of leon lai! haha)

Ok i should really get back to my studies! DIE!!!!

Gusti of your the man??

2010-02-28T18:51:00.001+08:00

I saw Gusti from your the man today at guan yin ma area.. He's pretty
tall i would say. And yeah, he do look much like on tv.. =) My bro say
michelle chong was thr earlier for filming too.. maybe it's for tt
show they are thr..

I won't say tt he's my fave in the show but he really is pretty cute!!
Guys tt can carry off goatie can't be too bad.. Haha..
I rank him 3rd after dennis n brian. 4th on my list is prob
eric

Dennis and Brian cos they look much more matured and my type!
Hahaha.. Intro me if you know them! They are not too old for my
standard! haha. Kinda sad that Dennis shove his mustache away!

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Presentation part2

2010-02-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

Oh wells.. In the end, i still did it.. But only for the Q&A..

At least it's all worth the effort. Another A down my pocket!! But
kinda worried that the higher i climb, the harder i fall.. Currently
all my A's are cause the lecturer are pretty lenient with grades. But
not for macro!! Which so happens to be my weakest(?) module? DIE!!!

Will set to finish my macro tut today n start mugging 4 midterms!!
Wish me luck!! Hugssss =)

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Presentation? Presentations?

2010-02-26T07:34:00.000+08:00

Should be just presentation. The one n only one this semester.. But
i'm just not in the best of mood today. So jia you my group members!!
I won't volunteer myself to do it though i'm so used to bullshitting
my way thro such presentation. But since i typed most of the report,
so just give in to me just this once k?? i may best understand the
regression model i formulated, but i trust u all!! Hugssss.
I think i will fall asleep in class later. Felt so cheated tt thr
isnt top model last night n made me stayed up late n not having done
much work!!

N Xiangmin, STOP bitching abt that probably NUS chem/bio sissy boy
reading on fatty acid notes just now!!

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问他

2010-02-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

是否会在我想要放手时，紧握不放？
是否会在我想掉头走时，挡住不让？
是否会在我哭泣难过时，不离不弃？
是否会在我犹豫不决时，为我决定？

如果以上他都办的到，就请他带给我幸福吧！

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What a morning...

2010-02-25T09:11:00.000+08:00

In the mist of all the toyota trouble, my bro's car broke down today
making me wonder how bad can it be to consumer's confidence?

Talking about confidence, why do i feel somehow inferior? Kinda
worried tt i won't get my spot in KU summer prog. Now tt i know it's
actually very competitive to get in...

I don't wanna mess up with my faith in myself.. Must 做到不动身色!!
Regardless whatever tt's pulling me down..

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Temper, xiangmin, mind it!!

2010-02-24T11:30:00.000+08:00

If there's one thing i can change, i really hope to be able to better
control my temper when i'm stressed!! I trying my best but i just seem
to get easily fastrated lately becos of all the pressure from school
work.. But well, i managed to swallow all my anger back in so far..
But i dunno how much longer i can hold. To think that now is only
week6... N i wonder who will be that poor fellow i might scream at..
Sorry b4 hand!!!! Hahahaha. I do hope no1 will be screamed at by me
though!!! Cant wait for korea~~~~õ™

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Motivation

2010-02-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

I really need some motivation to study!! help, anyone??

Do hope i get the summer exchange. Need a change in env to pull thro!
And maybe to welcome some love.. Haha..

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And this marks the end of my term break...

2010-02-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

Well.. i seriously think that i haven't put enough effort in my work this break.. totally not motivated.. And I'm all to blame.. the level of difficulty of my work totally leave me thinking if i made a right choice though i seriously think it's still all worth it! (For a hopefully brighter future and for removing all the possible regrets i may have later on in life if i haven't done it.).. But i really hope that classes can go a bit slower.. I really feel like i have too much in hand that i can't digest.. I always feel like suffocating with all the work, no matter how hard i try to understand one part, others just keep piling in..Oh wells... GAMBATTE! Since i have chosen it!

Another thing is, something i really do feel happy about although i guess some of my friends, even the best ones may doubt.. Maybe it's hard to believe that i really do feel happy about it? hahaha..

A good friend of mine (so happen that he is my ex-bf) is getting married soon. And after i heard that, 1st thing i had in mind was happy.. and then confused... and then after much thought, i really think i'm happy for him.

May sound a bit heartless but I really do feel i took him more as a very good friend and little brother than an other half. I always felt that he is among those that will wanna settle down early and lead a simple life.. I'm a greedy person.. I want more.. I want to experience work, i wanna see the world, i wanna know much more things and will definitely regret if i give up all these without trying hard enough. We were never meant to be, just that god played a tricked on us.. We both needed company then. Silly things that happen in life when young.. So this proofs that i WAS once young and silly! hahaha..

But in any case, I wish him to be happy in life always. Simple is not a bad thing. Just my small little hands wishes to grab on to many other things.. =)

Escape??

2010-02-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Apparently our faculty (Arts) have officially become the dating ground for Archi pple.. lol..

So is it an "escape" from the eyes of fellow schoolmates? Cos Arts is just so much bigger and away from all the working schoolmates. LOL..

Anyways, it's good to be seeing archi pple hanging around Arts.. Do come often. =)

So this is HONORS..

2010-02-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

Tons n Tons of endless work.. So this is true honors..

Hope it's all worthwhile. =)

I need some breathing space!

2010-02-01T01:31:00.000+08:00

This week has been real tiring with all the tutorials starting... I am like suffocating from all the work piling up on my desk!

Well nonetheless i still managed to steel some time to meet up with my friends.. Which i may totally regret along the week when i have to burn midnight oils to complete my work! BUT WHO CARES! What's done is done!

And i bought my new bag alr~~~ Totally love it and i think it worth every dollar i spent on it! I shall not reveal it's cost.. But it's not branded goods.. Just from my fave apparel store.. The one that i almost lost my laptop at.. =)

Alrights! Back to work!

Thank you!!!

2010-01-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

Some people find it superstitious but then I think it's more about believing in it.. I'm not too sure about it, but recently, I have been appealing for labor econs 2 but it all seems so not hopeful because the quota is really limited and i too already given up hope.. However, this morning a friend told me her friend actually managed to appeal into the module and so i decided to give one last shot or i feel i may regret for life... I have prayed everyday that i would get the module.. And i even went to guan yin temple to seek for guan yin ma's guidance hoping to get the module. And i also tried to be especially charitable these couple of days. I really.. after much begging and pestering.. I got the module.. at 1717hr! They tried calling me at 1711hr.. but i was in class.. They dock off work at 1800hr.. Btw and today might be like the last day of appeals already.. since they don't work on saturday and of cos not sunday.. and starting monday.. dropping of modules will be considered "W".. When i saw the missed call i tot they wanted to say they want to close the appeal case as it is.. BUT it was really to my surprise! and i couldn't contain my happiness throughout the class! =)

Maybe they took pity on me.. Or maybe really a god is out there looking after all of us, and so happened that he took notice of my prayers this time around.. But in any case.. I'm really grateful to all my friends that have been so supportive of me this few weeks and wished me luck in the appeals and prayed for me getting the module! THANK YOU!! BIG HUGS! and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Btw, I even missed the bidding by only a mere 4 points.. Is it all destined.. To make me cherish the module more!

Week2... Draining of brain juice

2010-01-20T02:40:00.000+08:00

1st lecture of the week is alr killing me softly.. Macro3 is the
toughest to endure in my opinion though many will claim otherwise..
Tmr will be my fave mod of the sem.. Becos i have finally decided to
agree that i wouldnt be able to do labor econ... Arghhhh... I hope
it's A sign from guan yin ma cos i misa the bid by ONLY 4 points!!!!!
Still Ngry with myself about that!!
May tmr be a better day... Bonds bonds bonds~~~

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Hamiltonian and Bellman Equations..

2010-01-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

This weekend was fun and tired + stress and tired.. So overall is it's a tiring weekend!.. Went drinking on Saturday with cyew and xz with aldrin watching.. And was a late night tt day.. lots of burps burps burps from the 500ml beer that went str down at a go.. stuck at the throat the lungs and the stomach.. And lots of toilet breaks after which.. I suffer from low water retention i suppose.. I always have to go toilet like b4 lects, bet lects and aft lects if i drink more than 250ml water.

AS for stress.. I need not mention more aft all the renting all week about how much more tougher is 4000 and 5000 modules compared to 3000... :'(.. Oh and about the Hamiltonian and Bellman Equations.. Well just one of my task for the next round of lectures start... I also need to familiarize with my macro stuffs as well as my interest rates for financial. That's my week 1.. Contrasting differences to previous semesters where i am still slacking like it's still holidays??

Oh well.... Welcome to week2! =)

1st day 1st lesson

2010-01-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

One word.. STRESS! or Two word.. DAMN STRESS! make it three.. DAMN F**KING STRESS!

Now i really understand the difference between honors year and not honors year module.. Everyone seems to know everything before class.. Not exactly.. But rather everything seems alien in class.. This semester i believe will be like no other.. SO JIA YOU! FIGHTING! =)

First day of school!

2010-01-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

Nope.. Today ain't my 1st day.. tomorrow will be my first day.. N i'm worried.. not about the class itself.. but whether i can appeal for the module i really really really wanna do! ARGGGGHHH.. Labor Econs 2.. please give it to me!!! :'( Fingers crossed!

I miss Jihoon~~~

2010-01-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

I miss Jihoon!! Watched Antique Bakery the other day.. He is so so so so cute!!...

Can't wait for him to be backed in the industry! If you don't remember his name.. below is for your viewing pleasure~~~

In the mean time i'll continue to collect beautiful photos of him! hahaha

In Antique is another cute actor Kim Jae Wook.. Some of you might remember him from coffee prince as the waffle guy.. he is way way more cuter in the movie acting as a gay pastry chef... Some sexual scenes.. So only above 18 to watch eh!!

Oh.. he's a model as well.. wonder if he's really gay.. but he really looks damn cute when he tied his hair n wore the black specs in the movie!

How Do I......

2010-01-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

One of my fave all time classic English ballets not by Celine Dion...

Trisha Yearwood's How Do I Live..

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby.......
How do I live....

You can enjoy it too at http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=5790782&song=How+Do+I+Live .. =)
And we can sing it the next time at KTV! =)

I hearts Hu Yu Wei

2010-01-07T04:21:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching lan qiu huo finally after stopping at ep12 due
to school!! Though yu wei is just a minor character in the show.. I
totally hearts him!! He is so so cute! My type! So if anyone with
friends that look like him, please intro eh!! Haha.. And i also love
xiao zhu n wu zhun as always.. My attitute toward jerry has too change
frm this show.. he's not tt AP.. And W is so cool in the show! Hearts
her too!! anyone friends to such hot babes, intro me too!! Haha..

Overall this show is really worth watching though some parts abit
draggy.. But Hai Pai Tian Xin is a total must watch!! I'm like
addicted to it. And i totally love the songs in there.. 爱疯头; 雨爱
and In Your Eyes!! I'm so gonna sing them in ktv!!!

Anyways, i hearts Hu Yu Wei!! But i have no intention to watch zhong
ji san guo. Soorryy!! But i still hearts him!!

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Lazing around, blogging

2010-01-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

For the last few days of my cherished holidays, i just feel like
resting at home doing nth at all!! For all i know it's gonna be a
crazy semester ahead of me!! So see you my frens nt in nus next hols!!
Miss me and think of me!! =)

N this few days is time for me to shake away all the emptiness i feel
from the festive of love!! N develop some love for my modules instead
of some guy that will nv gonna be thr for you! Hahaha.. I guess the
pressure of year 4 is really gainning on me and it seems to work
well!! Shall stop thinking of him n not be bothered by what he does!

And i am still totally upset over not getting labor econs2!!!

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Disgusted!

2010-01-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

Was looking at Yahoo news and came across this article about a lady being molested by 4, apparently INDIANS at the Sentosa Countdown party. Was totally GROSS! And I am totally upset by the fact that no one, helped her! ESP the rest of the SG guys out there! WE need to be for civic conscious? Reminded me of my SS module last semester! CIVIC CONSCIOUSNESS in Singapore

New Semester

2010-01-05T22:36:00.001+08:00

I have yet to start my semester and it's giving me lots of problems ALREADY!!!

I want my labor econs2!!!! SO UNFAIR! I think i will write to the prof if i really cant get it! will Sai Nai to the prof!! haha.. he's such a nice guy!

Blogging to bed

2010-01-03T04:46:00.000+08:00

This might be my new found hobby. Blogging to bed. I find myself in
the best state to reflect on my day b4 bed.
Was scribbling thro my new 2010 diary today(only managed to write till
june), n filling in the sem weeks, hols n bdays of some friends; had
many interesting things.
1st, hols on week 6 this sem n not 7!!!! That's stress since midterms
will be earlier!!! N hols falls on cny! Damn it. Only other public
hols during sem is good friday which is real bad cos i may have up to
3 lects tt day!! More makeups at 8pm!!! õ˜
As for birthdays, since i only got to june, i realise i really have
few friends born in march, at least not the closer 1s... ôœ mostly in
may n june.. N as usual i will start looking at horoscope of some
pples. So i covered capri to cancer n found some insides to the nature
of some pple.. Sometimes horoscope is really incredible!!
Was also talking to jr abt summer exchange. So exciting. I really hope
to go! To find my oppaõÍ in koreaöí! haha. Just kidding. May go other
places also. Shall see how...õÐõÐõÐõÐõÐ

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Test

2010-01-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Just testing

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2010-01-01T17:59:00.003+08:00

当感情已变质，再如何努力也于事无补。

Somehow it reminds me of this song..

人变了心,言而无信.
人断了情,无谓伤心.
我一直聆听,
我闭上眼睛,
不敢看你的表情.
满天流星,无穷无尽,
我的眼泪擦不乾净,
所以绝口不提.
所以暗自反省.
终於,
我挣脱了爱情.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
有许多事,
让泪水洗过更明白.
天真如我,
张开双手以为撑得住未来,
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
越伤得深,
越明白爱要放得开.
是我不该,
怎么我会眷著你眷成依赖,
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害.
满天流星,无穷无尽,
我的眼泪擦不乾净,
所以绝口不提.
所以暗自反省.
终於,
我挣脱了爱情.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
有许多事,
让泪水洗过更明白.
天真如我,
张开双手以为撑得住未来,
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
越伤得深,
越明白爱要放得开.
是我不该,
怎么我会眷著你眷成依赖,
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害.
我剪不碎旧日的动人情怀,
你看不出来我的无奈

My 1st blog post of the year!

2010-01-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

Since i promised to upload more photos in the previous post but did not cos was going out.. It's a promise made last year and to be forgotten this year! Shall all start afresh! =)

I have nothing much for the new year.. Just happy that miss you know who finally changed her status to in a relationship and i no need to be tight lip about it.. =) Congrats! hahaha =) *Found out that you actually do read my blog. haha.

Happy new year to you my friends! May the new year be a good start for everything unhappy the last year and continue to be good for the happy things last year!

あげまして　おめでとう　ございます！どぞよろしくお願いします！

Last entry of the year..

2009-12-31T16:22:00.000+08:00

This should be the last entry of 2009 for me.. Going out later.. So I shall draft a pretty long one sharing my exp this year, some thoughts and some thank you wishes to my friends.

This year is really one that changed a lot about me i suppose; be it towards studies, love and life in general.. Even though i din have must time to stop and think.. The year was so hectic, esp this semester, it felt like being pushed along orchard road during Christmas eve! So frustrating moving forward and yet you can't turn back cause everyone else is pushing from the back.

Studies was stressful.. So much so i just feel like giving up from time to time. How I can't manage the tutorials or when i barely made it during mid terms. There's no one i'm competing with; but it just feel like there's a big stone over you, and if you get weak, it will all just come crashing down. Even though I must admit that i really did quite ok overall in studies this year, I just can't brush away the fear for the coming year ahead. Honors is just so much of a heavy burden on me now, and i'm always blaming myself for not putting in effort in year 1, and i will continue to feel so even more when it gets tough along the year.

However, due to the results i get this year, I'm more confident in myself and i know i can do it. =) The acknowledgment and encouragement I get from my friends and tutors are also of great motivation for me!.. And for this i really thank everyone that crossed my path this year through. Thank you for believing in me and willing to approach me to discuss questions raised in class. And also many thanks to friends and tutors that helped me a lot along the way.

Congrats to you girls again on graduating! I really do miss you girls in lecturers!! You girls helped me passed env econs! And special thanks to Han Wen for introducing me to all the wonderful girls. And Ching Yee for accompanying me to find Pei Fei all the time for consultation. And of cos to Pei Fei (our tutor) for all the help and not get annoyed by us.. Else we might have flung math econs! I think he might have graduated from the masters class already since i don't see him around anymore. So do hope he's doing well somewhere out there.

And of cos to my beloved Jie Ru.. For always being so supportive of me.. Listening to my whining about how tough is school work.. And all the lunch dates.. =) To Belinda whom always help me a lot at work and Pei Shan and all others friends I met this semester . Was pretty tough having to make new friends all over again.. So thank you!!

As for my social life, many things have changed as well.. My girl friends all graduating and now working for half a year.. How can that not have an impact eh?? Gatherings just gets thinner and thinner each time.. Everyone bz with their own life working, dating.. etc etc..But this of course is an natural phenomenon. Recently was playing fb, and they asked a question.. Who changed your life the most this year.. It took me sometime whether I would want to put his name down, though without a doubt, if just thinking about this year, it will probably be him. I knew him for quite sometime but we talked more this year and really think i learned a lot from him and gotten a lot from him, even though he's my junior. He's special in a way. Because he's different from most of my friends i know and I left that his way of thoughts really surprises me. I shall not mention names here but if you see this, Thank you for 2009. Though our paths may not be the same in years to come, I'll always remember you for 2009! =)

Stacey and Xue Zhen have always been my source of emotional support most of the time this year. Though not many words, but they are all felt. Many thanks for the years before, and the many more years ahead as well! Mel, Xia n Yang.. Thanks to you guys for always being there for the past 10 years as well. Though we seldom meet, even less than Stacey and Xue Zhen; we all know that we'll always share a place in each other's heart. Even if anyone of us MIA for 2/3 years, we'll still hit if of when reappear and not blaming each other for not being around. To Cheryl as well, though I only got to know you very recently. I liked her though i can't really explain why.. So mel, do treat her well! Others, not mentioned, you are remembered as well just that i'm rushing out and i still have more to write.. I'll mention you all in the new year, marking another year to our friendships! =)

This year is definitely one full of surprises, friends getting engaged! And many others attached. Making me feel so empty this festive of love. But i thought it through this 2days.. There's no point in rushing it. It's better to find someone I can stay with the rest of your life than one that will make you miserable even for a week! I'm glad i'm a rational person.. And credits to Stac, xz, vir and jul. You all are the only ones that know about it. =)

This year is really an exciting one and memorable one.. Full of fun, laughter, sadness, whining, etc etc etc. For all the people that made my year, and also those that didn't, do have a great year in 2010.. And may we create more miracles! =)

I'll post more photos after i bathe.. If i still have time.. =)

7 and a half more hours to the end of 2009 and I'm living it to the fullest!

Vivo again

2009-12-31T04:04:00.002+08:00

Guess what! I'm back at vivo again..

Dinner with vir n jul.. Haven't seen them for so long!!! Totally missed them! Had some small talks and all..

N yeah.. touched on the topic that i prob would most like to avoid these days.. LOVE..

Maybe i am getting older.. Just wanna settle down with someone by your side and dropping you a msg from time to time asking a simple "what are you doing?" or "where are you now?".. Nevertheless, life is brutal as always.

I suddenly tot of this song "When you want it the most, there's no easy way out. When you're really to go, and your heart's left in doubt." however, i'm not too sure about.. "don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it."

Anyways.. back to life being brutal.. Just feel that god is always playing a trick on me. When I want it the most, it will just never be there for me. And i missed it.. And i regret not holding on to it earlier. And i hate myself for it. Maybe i'll finally learn it. Maybe i'll just get used to it. And maybe maybe and more maybes.

Though the festive of love is wearing off me.. but i just feel that maybe and just maybe it has to do with something about me. The festive of love will only flame during this period and die off soon after and i get very dis-interested and passive about it. In a nutshell, I take things for granted. So festive of love, leave now and i'll be happier.. =)

VIVO VIVO VIVO...

2009-12-30T02:00:00.002+08:00

Went vivo city today. Haven't been there for quite sometime.. Ok.. not exactly that long.. but since school hols i only been there twice.. both times with my sis..

Saw some changes.. but oh wells.. How great right? hahahaha.. School's starting real soon.. I can't wait! Yeap, I miss my friends in school! Jie ru, Belinda, Vir, Li Shan etc etc..

Last Christmas

2009-12-27T22:40:00.001+08:00

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shyed
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying 'I love you', I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kiss me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of eyes
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl on a cover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year
Maybe this year I'll give it to someone special

Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year
It won't be anything like, anything like

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

I always liked this song.. =)

I'm not cut for DDR

2009-12-27T00:47:00.002+08:00

Was at the hangout today.. played DDR on xbox.. all i get is a big FAIL!!!! hahaha.. I just can't get the signs right! ARGHHH

Take me away.. to fairyland..

2009-12-26T11:24:00.002+08:00

Christmas is a season of love and joy.. And also the season where people are are so vulnerable.. to wanna get attached.. SO do think carefully before you make any decisions that you may regret!

This year will be extremely tough for me i guess! 3 of my girl friends are engaged/ getting engaged! OMG!.. and my GOODIE friend is soon to be attached! I hope... hahaha..

This is really giving me the itch.. My friend was so crazy enuff to ask me go get back my ex! that's CRAZY!.. haha.. though we are good friends but we ride a different path.. it's never gonna be possible between us anymore..

OH WELLS... next semester gonna be even more bz i guess SO maybe it doesn't really matter..

Maybe not wishing may bring me better luck.. for someone to dawn upon me and taking me away to fairyland... =)

Post exams syndrome...

2009-12-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

I am suffering from post exams syndromes.. Argh!!!
The symptoms?...

Sudden shivering due to fear from not having completed tutorials/assignments. ESP during Sunday nights!!!
Waking up in the middle of the night or early morning.. Trying to search for handphone to find out the time..
getting all stress up all day
feel uneasy not reading or doing something.

Anyways.. in a nutshell.. I'm trying to get use to my holidays!

Exams over!`

2009-12-03T22:03:00.001+08:00

It's show TIME!.. slack slack slack slack slack!

只要我長大

2009-11-24T00:47:00.001+08:00

只要我長大

作詞：白景山　作曲：白景山

哥哥爸爸真偉大，名譽照我家，為國去打仗，當兵笑哈哈。
走吧走吧，哥哥爸爸，家事不用你牽掛，只要我長大，只要我長大。

叔叔伯伯真偉大，榮光滿天下，救國去打仗，壯志賽奔馬，
走吧走吧叔叔伯伯，我也挺身去參加，只要我長大，只要我長大。

街坊鄰家真偉大，造福給大家，奮勇去殺敵，生死全不怕，
幹吧幹吧街坊鄰家，我也要把敵人殺，只要我長大，只要我長大。

革命軍人真偉大，四海把名誇，拚命去殺敵，犧牲為國家，
殺吧殺吧革命軍呀，我也要把奸匪殺，只要我長大，只要我長大。

Should I??...

2009-10-25T02:08:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking about this possible phenomenon lately when I started doing my labor economics module.. Which can possibly be a good thesis writing... And I'm really keen about investigating.. However, I am just not brave or rather, confident enough to "sacrifice" 3 modules worth of grades (if I don't do well).. Nonetheless, it's a really interesting issue to ponder about.. I'm not too sure if there's already writings on it though...

It's about what I call it the "graduate's burden". We learn in labor economics about wage differential of High ability and Low ability workers.. And usually, education is taken as the indicator of your ability (For model)... So it is interesting to me how the supply curve of individuals change with education.. And graduates having a derived supply because of wage differential rather than what they are truly willing to supply. And since each individual is heterogeneous, it is interesting to investigate the patterns and come out with some model to depict it..

Maybe I will try looking into it during the holidays... Wonder if anyone have already came out with such an idea.. Or maybe I'll be the next potential noble ECONOMIC prize nominee! heeheehee

Whole new level of Kiasu Syndrome...

2009-10-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

Kiasu Syndrome is a term coined in my sing soc module on Singapore's national identity.. and recently, in the sprees i have participated... i feel that this "Kiasu Syndrome" has reached a all new level...

Below are real email treads i received recently... names have been altered for privacy...

KS - the spree-er
Miss X - 3rd party not able to get the 跳楼货
Org - Spree organizer..

Sent: Tuesday, 20 October 2009 14:07:53

Hi,

Fine then, I will give KS your 3 items as requested.

Miss X : Your item #4 is now OOS.

Org

Sent: Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:58:03

Hi,

My friend is a spree organiser too and she always go according to the time the order was paid instead of the time order was posted. I think her arrangement is rather fair and justifiable.

Perhaps you people can try considering such arrangement too :)

Regards,
KS

  
Sent: Tuesday, 20 October 2009  1:49:53

Hi,

I chose a way which I think would be most fair to  all. If you are unhappy with it, I will refund your order. Just FYI I forfeited  my own orders for this item so everyone can have at least one piece of this  item, which I know is popular because it is on a cheap sale.

I don't  care if it doesn't make sense to you or if you think I am irresponsible because  I believe that this is for the good of everyone and I will not give in to one's  spree-ers demands when they already have two

You can ask the rest what  they think, or if they think I am being unfair as well.

Org

 Date: Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:30:14 +0800

hi,
 
i would like u to understand that this is not about how many i have gotten   :X 
is about how the orders are taken in right? why would u want to compare  with the others? it's making no sense?
 
i ordered 3, which is inclusive of my frens' order..so i need to tell them  why is this so and hence i am asking u..
and even it turns one round, my order would have been in batch 2 since i  saw u closing de spree and opening it again... i dont see any reason why i am  not receiving what i ordered?
 
and if u tink refund can make me happy or save ur trouble then that is not  solving the problem but just ignoring it, which is highly irresponsible :X
 
thks!~

KS

 Date: 2009/10/20

That was what I thought would be most fair. After all you already have  2 orders and the rest of the orders are 1 or 2. If you are unhappy with this  arrangement would you want me to refund you instead?  

Org

Date: Tue, 20 Oct 2009 12:27:44 +0800  

but the  posting time is before them :( why does it have to go one round?

KS

 Date:2009/10/2009

Your original order was only 1, then you changed to 3 Qty. The other's  spree-er's orders was in the original order post so it went one round then came  back to yours, and I could only order one more in addition to your first order  of 1 Qty.

Org  
 
 Date: Tue, 20 Oct 2009 12:19:49 +0800

i pasted my enquiry again here..in case u din see.. :X i tot orders  is based in first come first serve to be fair? :(
 
    Re: ITEM  #1 ONLY 2 QTY
2009-10-20 04:05 am  UT 
   ehm sorry but how come? :X
cos the orders below still  have?

KS

Anyways... below is the 跳楼货. Damn cheap (0.69pounds) but i dun see why should the spree-er get so agitated.

I still have other email.. will put it up when i have time...

So it's unlikely that racial conflict will happen to cause social instability in Sg.. but Kiasu syndrome as the new age threat to social instability?? hmmmm

Me DEAD from work...

2009-10-18T17:53:00.000+08:00

Just too stressed with work and decided to play with photoshop...

Freaking fast!

2009-10-18T17:52:00.001+08:00

It's week 10 already! DAMN IT!!!.. Datelines and more Datelines! ARG

A Saturday that feels like sunday...

2009-10-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

It's a Saturday.. but I keeping thinking it's Sunday cause it's a public holiday and my parents are home.. haha

Anyway.. time is slowly eating me away.. I am so so worried about the projects I have in hand...

Bless me!

I just don't like pple touching all over me... So...

2009-10-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

Nope, i didn't do anything promiscuous or what so ever...

Just went for a face spa with my sis this morning..

The person was like doing my face.. then moved on to messaging my shoulders arms and chest.. and she said... "relax your shoulders.." And how am i gonna do that when you are touching all over me, making me tickle all over.. Yes, like tickle-me-elmo.. it just makes me wanna laugh and get tensed up when people touch all over me... So smart choice i didn't go for body spa.. I probably can't stay still for even 1 minute!..

Anyways.. now my face is like filled with mosquito bites because of the PAINFUL, I really mean DAMN PAINFUL squeezing of my blackheads.. she was using like some tweezers or something and poking it INTO my face... freaking PAIN!

Overall, I really don't see any major changes to my face.. Or am I not suppose to see anything in the first place? Other than the mosquito looking spots on my face?

So the question.. Will I go again? Unlikely.. unless it's free! hahaha...

Specific Cost, Joint Cost and Common Cost...

2009-10-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

This was the main ideas to my Transport economics tutorials.... And we are asked how to deal with them?

As usual, i have no idea what it really means b4 the class... but somehow, we just have to learn along the way... So I kinda know what it really means now!..

And for the layman... it'll all seems all too easy if I put it this way....

Consider your everyday life of schooling...

Specific cost: the cost it will take to make a trip to school.. If you don't go school.. the cost won't exist
Joint cost: Since you go to school, you will have to go home.. So the cost of trip is jointed and occurred together.. Well, unless you decide to stay in school FOREVER! and not go home..
Common cost: Since we, the students share the same tutor/lecturer.. the tutor/lecturer serves many of us.. so the cost should be split among all of us!!!!

Hahaha.. alright.. pretty lame.. But on the dot isn't it?

Why can't i keep a low profile?

2009-10-13T22:34:00.002+08:00

I have been trying very hard to keep a low profile in school but apparently...

Why do people just have to force me into talking and get totally shocked by what i say?

Just shut up in the future, Xiangmin. Please knock it in!

So what am I?..

2009-10-12T00:16:00.002+08:00

Was chatting with a friend the other day about his intriguing nick.. "What will inspire you?"

It really got me thinking.. So what gets me inspired? Or rather the more important question, what am I inspired to do?

I usually set rather short term goals in my life.. Like to do well this semester.. To learn a certain thing.. To work on something..

But what exactly do I want in life? I have always been trailing my sister and brother's footsteps.. To do what they do, or to be exact, hope to be able to do what they do cause I see that they're doing great.

But that doesn't mean that I'm inspired isn't it? I'm just copying.. But I do have in mind what career path I hope to take.. And I do hope that from there, I'll find my own desired path..

Start putting on my thinking CAP!

saturday... BORED DAY...

2009-10-10T15:45:00.002+08:00

Been trying to do up my transport paper but it sucks.. ARGH!

Craving for mac's sundae...

Stay away, Stranger

2009-10-10T01:28:00.002+08:00

I bite! So don't come trying to be funny with me..

This 2 days been quite irritated by this guy that dunno when got into my msn list but I'm really not too keen about talking with him.. BTW, he so happens to be my friend's schoolmate in university and tried to hit on my friend in school!

Don't come telling me that i have nice photos. You can judge, you can think all you want but you don't have to tell me! STRANGER!

ROAR!!!

Managing my new Fringe

2009-10-09T02:01:00.005+08:00

Yes, many pple has been asking me if i've cut my hair.. Yeap, i cut my fringe myself recently cause I dislike the fringe getting toooooo long.. So i cut cut cut and it somehow went kinda wrong.. so it just get shorter and shorter until.... it's so short it's noticeable by ALL..

My new "bangs-like" hair is kinda difficult to manage.. since i have to keep trimming it from time to time.. and it's over my eyes all the time.. But i really is kinda working it! I love it! at least for now.. btw, it's not really BANGS.. it's still side-parting just that it's somewhat all falling front.

Anyways, some difficulties are... first, it really irritates my eyes most of the time.. cos i cant get it any short or it will be damn weird. Second.. it's hard to kip it splitting in the middle cause of my hair line... But i'm trying my best to maintain it... cos i'm lovin' it for now... =)

It just keep splitting in the middle.. ARG!

But it's really kinda nice when they don't! N see how it falls on my eyes... yeah.. kinda irritating.. so i wear a pair of specs.

Yes.. Call me ZI LIAN.. I Don't care! =)

E-LEARNING WEEK!

2009-10-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

This is most hideous week of the semester.. E LEARNING WEEK!.. I totally disaster in disguise.. I still have tutorials every day except my usual off day and even had a mid term test.. However, given that it is E learning week and there ain't suppose to be lectures, our beloved lecturers assumed that we have a whole week of off days and uploaded inches of readings and notes which we must go through and comment in the forum or participate in the chatroom.. which is like CRAZY!!!!

Bless my soul!

My challenge to YOU!

2009-10-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

Quite some time ago, was talking about naming 10 countries in AFRICA.. and OF cos, all that came to mind was Zimbabwe..

Not too long ago.. I recalled about it and google-ed it.. And realized there are just SO SO many of it that I know/heard b4 just that I've never put it to heart..

So try it now before you look at my ANS!.. NAME 10 Countries in Africa!

Here's my list
1. Zimbabwe
2. Congo
3. South Africa
4. Egypt (YES!! EGYPT!)
5. Madagascar ( the cartoon is just so cute!)
6. Somalia
7. Gabon (because of Survivor)
8. Morocco
9. Mauritius
10. Nigeria
To Add on... there's always Kenya (the runners!), Ethiopia (which sounds like utopia), Cameroon.. New Guinea (which always remind me of guinea pigs), Senegal, Sudan, Togo, Rwanda.. etc etc etc...

Thoughts... on CLass of Cos!

2009-10-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

Had a very interesting discussion in tutorial class yesterday about Singaporeans and Singapore's national Identity..

Anyways.. It came to a point went we were asking if US / Aust were to offer SG to become another state of theirs, What will be our reaction.. And if it's for United States of Asean, what will it be like..

I was very taken aback to know that SG is actually the 1 pushing for it... Of cos i can understand what our government's intentions are.. but I would think that ultimately our gov't might be the 1 backing out...

With my years leaving in this country, i always find our government very focused towards what they have in mind.. Or some people might say uncompromising to anything else.. For a union amongst such diversified countries, I don't see how WE can settle for a compromised set of laws for all.

We know that it's pretty hard impossible for us to accept privileged groups of people by birth.. (Kings and Sultans).. But from what I feel, from the response of the citizens in those countries with Kings and Sultans, I don't see how they will be willing to give up such traditions...

And same goes down with religion.. Asean consist of many countries with strong religious faith.. And you see, they don't usually agree.. I can't imagine myself being restricted to not able to drink alcohol in public or face the penalty of caning in public! 22 years of my life don't conform to such rules! But some country have to make a big WHO-HA it, which i can totally accept if it's not my country.. 国有国法，家有家规.. We just have to accept what is theirs and NOT ours..

There are many more possible disagreement if common laws were to be set up..

I can only see that Singapore will once again be "FORCED OUT"..

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Class have been tough but tutorials for SSA have been interesting at least till now... That keeps my mind out of other things at least for 2hrs every other week!

Happy? Or a false front?

2009-10-03T00:43:00.002+08:00

I was told twice today by 2 different pple that I look happy. But how true is it? Because it's a weekend? Because I just finished a test? Or is it...

I'm just putting up a false front? When i'm happy. Am I truly so? If i am, why is it not from deep down inside.. but just 皮笑肉不笑... I don't get it...

Is books not enough to satisfy me anymore? Have I became greedy, and want much more? If only you could be here for me, would everything be better? Or will nth change all the same?

Bye byes F1...

2009-09-30T23:30:00.002+08:00

Was an entertaining weekend watching F1 Singapore. Though my love is no where near the rankings and Mr H won.. HAIZ... But it wasn't all that good now that school is back on! I'm still like in my holiday mood swings..

Anyway... My dear Kimi-chan, please at least keep urself ahead of Mr H in the remaining few races... OR I WILL JUMP SHIP FOR BUTTON! I MEAN IT!. He is younger (1 year), almost as good looking, AND BETTER! at least at current season... You WERE so promising and CUTE... Might have a chance of being the 2nd Micheal... But now... HAIZZZZZZ.... And please don't blame it on the car.. Anyways, my prayers.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE keep ahead of Mr H.

Ok now.. back to my boring old labor economics. =(

BTW, HOW CAN WE BE EXEMPTED FROM ELEARNING WEEK! SAD! ARGH!

To Miss-You-Know-Who...

2009-09-27T15:25:00.001+08:00

As promised.... =)

Discrimination?

2009-09-27T15:04:00.002+08:00

I was reading through my textbook today.. For the up coming mid term test.

And i read...

"It is important to emphasize that welfare programs do not lower the LFPR of low-wage workers because these workers lack a "work ethic.""

It's like Wooooohhhh.. low wage = lack work ethic?

But i strongly believe that's not what he meant. It's just the slope of the IC that implies low-wage workers more likely to choose the welfare grant than working.

WORDS ARE DANGEROUS!

오빠 사랑해요!!

2009-09-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

Not that I'm a K-drama addict or whatever.. But was just playing around with my Korean - English translator.

오빠 사랑해요 - Is just a way of showing affection for your other half. For ladies only.. But if you drop the first word, then anyone can use it. =)

This just goes to show.. I'm bored. hahaha.. Enjoy my phrase of the day!

To Work or Not to Work? And Who to work?

2009-09-10T21:35:00.003+08:00

Been working on my labor economics tutorial today... It's borinG!! So bored I just had to go out for some fresh air.. Ok.. In the end i didn't.. "Cause i have no FRIENDS..." hahaha.. Got that from someone..

Anyways.. So my tutorial goes...

Jack's hourly wage is $60 and the marginal value of his time in the household is $25 per hour.
Jill's hourly wage is $50 and the marginal value of her time in the household is $20 per hour.
Who will specialize in the household and who will specialize in the labor market?

I all right sense of mind, I will think that Jack should work since, assuming they value household goods and market goods equally.. And they of cos have to jointly make their decisions... Gain for Jack to work 1 extra hour is $35 and Jill $30.. It makes perfect sense for Jack to work isn't it?

But then.. I was looking through my textbook, it says, for every $ of household goods jack gives up, he gains $2.40 in market goods ($60/25) and Jill $2.50 in market goods.. So Jill standing a greater gain should work. It totally sounds ridiculous to me.. So if there's any labor experts out there, enlighten me!

Anyways.. It get even more crazy on the 2nd half...

Jack's hourly wage is $20 and the marginal value of his time in the household is $10 per hour.
Jill's hourly wage is $30 and the marginal value of her time in the household is $15 per hour.
Who will specialize in the household sector and who will specialize in the labor market?

Common sense tells me that Jill should work.. It's like DUH! It is a no-brainer? However, going by the same rule from the textbook.. It should be indifferent as to Jack or Jill to work since they both gain $2 in market goods for every $ of household goods given up...

So, moral of the story. Economics create wonders beyond imagination! Claps Claps

CRazy me...

2009-09-10T01:19:00.001+08:00

Have been very busy lately.. Or rather, very sian over school work.. Been kinda slack but yet stressed over the countless of assignments and tests upcoming.. ARG!!!! I think there's something wrong about me!

Was Sick.. Porridge AGAIN!

2009-08-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

Porridge again.. yeah.. This time for a different reason this time but in 1 month? Porridge season again for me..

Went to the dentist to had my 4 wisdom tooth out before school start hoping to have a good semester ahead with no worries about crazy wisdom toothaches.

But 3 weeks down into the semester.. i was down with Fever, Headaches, Block nose and Throat infection. Had a terrible night on Monday and not better off night on Tuesday. Finally getting slightly better.. Haiz....

And Economics is getting me crazy!!!! ARGHHHHH

School life

2009-08-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

It's now week 2 into the semester and I'm still trying to get use to school school and more school. Since my econs buddies graduation, it's just getting boring in school. ESP transport econs.. I've not failed to fall asleep within half hour for the past 2 lectures.

Anyways.. Kinda getting a bit disgusted by some of my fellow schoolmates this few days.. I have reserved this book from the library for quite sometime.. and when i finally saw that i'm the next one in line.. I was quite delighted when it says "due 15-08-09". However, till today, that disgusting person that borrowed the book has yet to return the book!!! Wonder if he lost it! It's rude of him.. Or her!! I think they should implement the system that bar them for borrowing for like 2 weeks at the very least and fine them for like $10!

And they finally put up signs saying No eating in the library.. Cos people are abusing the library.. It started off being nice to students knowing we study very hard in the library. but people start bringing hot food like noodles soup and chicken rice into the library to eat! It's like CRAZY??? Give you an inch you want a yard! So I'm pretty happy this rule is up though that means i can't snack in the library anymore.. That's fine! =)

Oh.. and i was at the library toilet the other day. It was GROSS! ARG!.. 3 of 5 cubicles are dirty beyond usage.. Got un-flushed SHIT, clogged toilet bowls from toilet paper, urine on the sit! How disgusting cant our fellow mates get??? This is giving me creeps!!! DISGUSTED!!!!!!

Oh Wells... At least Sing Soc is quite enjoyable for the 1st lecture.. And the cute tutor is taking this module! Wonder if I'll get him as tutor! hahaha.. Seems like soci has pretty decent group of tutors.. haha! No saying Econs tutors are not good! (They are very approachable and helpful!) They just lost out in terms of packaging. lol.

Lots of books to get this sem! DAMN IT!

Will blog as time goes by...

Instant Photos

2009-07-27T16:14:00.003+08:00

Has been addicted to instant photos lately. Just like the fact that what i snap is what i get. With digital technology, photos are rarely developed anymore.. even if it is, it may have gone through the wonders of photoshop...

Of cos, instant photos can never give the the brilliant colors of the actual environment, but for me, it's the instant. The moment, which cannot be erased or altered.

These are some of the photos i took...

My Holidays

2009-07-23T21:32:00.002+08:00

This holidays though I'm regretful that I din work, I had a great time!

First was a trip to Taiwan for 11 DAYS!

And then Xue Zhen n Qian n Yang returning to SG for hols which they usually don't in mid of the year.

Had lots of fun BBQ-ing, KTV-ing, Eating and Drinking with Xue Zhen and HM-ers

Met up with Qian and co. was heart-warming. It's like reunion and having small chats about life.

Prawning with Yang and Stac was great.. Something new, something fresh! It's always new things with the choir gang. Visiting new places and all..

Had lunch with my Econs friends. Chatted Chatted Chatted.

Meeting Julia was great too.. Chats and exchanging of gossips. LOL.

Meeting up with JC classmates was cool too! Something i always hope would happen in the past few years. It's just great to catch up.. Maybe someday with my primary school classmates too! That will be OMG!.. Must start digging out the namelist and photos to match faces to names!! hahahaha

Met up with my Juniors were fun too... Glad that they are all doing well in life!

Oh.. and the latest.. My cute giggly friend today.. Haha.. First time ever meeting her in TOWN. Had a nice chat and got to know her better. So fun. Though we were just roaming around town. =)

Had a interview/product training for some IT FAIR at nus. Met an old friend from JC. haha. N i turned down the job. I'm just not cut to be a salesperson.

It's a few more days to the new semester.. ALONE. SAD. SAD.

Pondering

2009-07-23T20:47:00.001+08:00

Lately for some reasons, talks with my close friends have been circling around that topic about LOVE that we once totally ignore or avoid talking.

According to Qian, it's because we have reached THE AGE. But i always thought THE AGE was like in secondary school? But in any case, I'm always open to talk about it as I have nothing to hide? hahaha Or maybe cause i have too much to hide and is always finding one reason to cover the other?

As we ladies age, we have to start planning. Planning for the future. But what installed for me seems to be studies studies and more studies. As I moved on into upper years of my uni life, I felt pressurized, pressurized to study harder, to do better than where i am now. So much so LOVE seems to be a burden for me. I don't wanna be looking out for "potentials" just for the sake of others doing the same cause i really find i do not even have enough time for myself. I'm happy just listening to my girlfriends' BGR talk.

So good luck to those in the search for love and bless me in my studies! =)

Back from Taiwan

2009-05-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i last blogged. Just return from taiwan and is stoning at home doing nothing each day.. Just to lazy to get a job.. Or rather too afraid of getting rejected in this bad bad bad bad economy..
Results will be out on Friday.. Kena worried cos dun think i myself justice this semester.. :(
ARG!!! Am conceptualizing a story.. will start after i see my results on fri i guess... ARG.. so ARG
ARG...

Why am I having these dreams lately!?!?

2009-03-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why.. Is this a curse or something? That i can NEVER EVER get over him?

Everytime I tot it's over, I don't feel it anymore.. It just keep coming back.. Just like this few days... Dreams about him.. Fantasies.. And things about the past.. Why can't i walk out of it.. I tot i could. I tot i will.. I tot i did.. But then, 1 fine day, I'll just fall right into it all over again.

I could be so cool about every1 else... but just not him.. It's killing me softly!

=(

You hold a piece of me, no matter who you are with

2009-02-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

Oh well, if u think i'm emo... Just to inform that this is a title of a book.

Is that what i feel at the moment though? hmmm.. Maybe a bit? But it's not in a Emo way. I am by no means gonna kill myself or anything!

Only that he do holds a special place in my heart.

Every time i visit Guan Yin Ma, i will always wish for (1) Good grades (2) Health and Happiness to family and friends (3)Wish him well. And lastly, Good grades again! Without fail! I can't deny that he is special to me, but from the looks of it, Good Grades are still more impt to me. I've always wished for wellness for family and friends and him, yet never for myself. But i do hope Guan Yin Ma will dote on me and bless me with good grades! hahahahaa

In any case, studies come 1st, and he will always remain in a corner of my heart.

Who am i, What am i, Why am i

2009-02-07T18:52:00.002+08:00

For some reasons, i feel ABnormal these days. Not in sense of the dictionary explanation for that word, but rather, i feel something's weird about me and how people around me are acting.

I cant find a word to my feeling right now. I'm not happy, not sad, not angry, not disappointed. not ANYTHING. it's as if i have 抛开七情六欲, but then again not really. I'm not EMO either. No suicidal tendencies! But it's like a lot of emotions swelling up, all to my neckline, so much so i cant think logically anymore.

All my brain registers is to do well for studies.

But all that said, i don't feel motivated to pick up my notes and mug.

I don't have an answer. Maybe i need a psychologist or something to help me.. lol.

Really glad that my math econs tutor is some1 familiar, and one i can approach..

OMG! Am i pretentious?

2009-02-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

Was reading .. 表里不一的星座情人?

第二名：双鱼座

演技派第一名，会担心锋芒太露所以掩藏智慧，会扮纯真让你失去戒心，会故意示弱向你寻求保护，还会一边将你洞察得一清二楚，却装作什么也不知道。所有的表演都非故意，而是本能。以此带来的种种错觉，其实是为保持一种若即若离的朦胧美。

Somehow it sounds true but when reading it, it makes me feel that i am a pretentious bitch! lol

As i continue reading moreof these horoscope stuff..

2009-02-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

This is the power of internet.. it gets u hooks by offering links and more links to related sites that might interest the reader...

In 六种星座女生最让男人受罪.. My horoscope was featured in the following..

2、一个没有自我的女人

　　她可能从未好好关爱过自己。当一位需要照顾的人出现时，她自然就把关注点全部投在对方身上，倾尽全力为对方付出。她愿意随时随地接受并承担情感世界里出现的责难、内疚。她不是为自己活，而是为了别人；与其说她是无私奉献的乖乖女，不如说她是失去自我的爱情奴隶。但是，婚姻是一种平等的伴侣关系，而不是主人与奴仆的关系。伴着一个没有自我的女人，男人承担的是最沉最重的情感包袱。除非你是一个冷酷的男人，能坦然接受她的“牺牲”。而对于她自己来说，一旦男人因为某种原因而离她而去，她可能会因不能接受现实而崩溃。

　　警惕的星座：双鱼座、处女座、天秤座。双鱼女和处女女都是那种平时可能很有个性又有原则，但一遇到自己在乎的人，双鱼会本能地百依百顺，而处女则完全失了章法，要么逃避离开要么就自我太强，处处想控制……天秤女则总是把目光对着对方的行为，或者与其他朋友的伴侣们做对比参考，几乎忘记了自己的真实想法。这些星女会让男人慢慢失去激情。

4、一个拒绝真实的女人

　　她从未有过自信，即使幸福来到身边，她也不相信这是真的。她怀疑一切，包括爱情，因为她的心理无法承受爱的温馨。如果与这样的女人走入婚姻，你要随时准备好应对她的敏感与多疑，并且要为她承担一切生活中的狂风暴雨。同样，如果情感遇到波折，她也只会让自己在一个充满幻想的世界里生活，远离真实的现实。就像鸵鸟一样，在遇到危难的时候，把头埋到沙子里，以为不去面对就万事大吉了。实际上，她只是没有勇气面对现实。

　　警惕的星座：狮子座、双鱼座。狮子女虽然骄傲，其实容易对爱情悲观。而悲观的背后是不切实际的渴望，认为自己得不到最想要的美好的爱情。所以爱情后来了会不能相信或失望不已。失恋了也不能面对。这是狮子女最大的硬伤。而双鱼女虽然也容易不够现实，但她能承受甚至享受这种悲伤的情绪，不像狮子那么昏暗。但同情的是她比狮子沉溺幻想更深更长久和习惯……

I think many of these points raised are really feelings from deep inside my heart..

Link as follows.. http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_5014b2590100c70m.html~type=v5_one&label=rela_articletagpub

Random...

2009-02-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

Had a(relatively) long day today.. Had Lerk Thai again.. As usual, our weekly dosage.. lol...

And my lecturer went singing Cai Shen Dao in class and giving out candies that he took out from a golden basket! Was totally amusing... lol

Anyways.. came across this site : http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_5014b2590100c7d3.html~type=v5_one&label=rela_articletagpub

It about how each horoscope sees vows (十二星座山盟海誓的可信指数排行榜).. And for me...

★双鱼座
对天盟誓表现：经常不愿立誓
可信指数：☆☆
双鱼在谈恋爱的初期阶段比较三心二意，爱意变化很大。他们也自知即使立下爱的誓言也只是徒具其形，未必能真的信守誓约，所以他们不愿意在谈恋爱最热情的时候向对方立誓。就算对方因此而不满，双鱼仍会对当天立誓的行为有所保留，宁愿以行动来表示他们的爱意。

I think it sounds like a compliment to me!! wahahaha... But i really do feel that i am such a person though.. Not all that faithful from the beginning kind of person. =X.. And i don't like to take vows that i can't keep regardless how you feel about it. Actions speak louder than words!!

Oh ya, and on another on my horoscopes virtues, i was said to be.. 双鱼座：温柔，体贴，文静而沉默，做事细。 Wahahahaha.. So amusing but pleasing!!

Back to School! 1st DAY!!

2009-01-13T23:13:00.003+08:00

Yeap.. I am finally back in school!

1st lecture: IT module
So this is what happened...
Was super duper early. And the lecture hall was pitch black. and i really mean pitch black. So din enter.

Introduction.
My friend goes: "The lecturer is a woman?" Shags..
And when the lecturer goes: HI!!! Welcome. Let's all check that we are in the right class OK???
And we all knew, yeap, it's a WOMAN! Whatever.
Bottom line(not = to profit as of accountings): Her voice is KILLING ME SOFTLY!

Sleep count: 1/2hr

Lecture 2: Economics module
My missy act cute talk talk talk talk talk that i'm late for my econs lect. *By a bit only la.

Lesson 1.
*Waves *Waves and more *Waves goes my Mr Korean lecturer. He's is so funny, with a bit of feminine touch. He will get so ji dong when student got the wrong idea and go waving his hands frantically and correctly. "Potential full income is not a choice. it's a assumption" ; "Imagine money just drop from the sky"
Bottom line: I think is he nice.

p/s: there's hot dude in the class! oh mr twilight!

Sleep count: 5mins (was really really tired from earlier)

3rd and last lecture!: Accounts mod
Music.. Music Music... Drum rolls and many other animated effects when i entered the hall.

And it all starts with.. MV of the lecturer! hmmm... I have no comments over his overly feminine actions other than.. HE's X.X.X. (Make a guess). But i may be wrong. Those from tpjc, the best description i can give is, he reminds me totally of our beloved Chinese teacher Chen lao shi...

And i was asked to ans question!! And i got it right! Wohoo! Good start!

Sleep count: 0mins.. Maybe for a split second. (The whole lecture was filled with sound effects from ppt it's too noisy to sleep.. And he walks around the hall)

That's all for my 1st day in school.

And for my lunch you may ask? 1 hashbrown + a chocolate milk at 4pm.. Yeap. Sad but true.. Too busy rushing around! 1st time in biz school. Almost got lost!

Just a thought..

2009-01-09T17:24:00.002+08:00

Was reading through latest issue of Economist a moment ago and was looking into US economy.... What else right?!? And this particular para caught my attention..

Mr Bush and the Republicans in Congress repeatedly gave voters goodies without paying for them: tax cuts without tax reform, subsidized prescription drugs without Medicare reform, and so on."....

In economics we always look at 2 period model. If we borrow this period, we must repay in the next plus interest. This model is also extended to infinite horizon. What borrowed by this generation must be paid by the next plus interest! And i thought this was part of the basics of economics, so what have the economists been doing? Or are there no economists under Mr Bush's wings?

May Obama and his new crew be better! It's painful to tighten spending but it's necessary. For country and for the people

Financial Crisis FlowChart

2008-12-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

My version of Financial Crisis.. As told by my lecturer in sch.. lol.. will post more of my readings on the financial situation.. Stay Tune! If you care about the world too!

Freebies.. Free Samples..

2008-11-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

Still in the mist of testing it out.. But according to the my referral, there's no gimmicks... I hope.. lol..

Exams!!

2008-11-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

Exams is in no time!!!1

I have visited my BLOG!

2008-08-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Kinda busy these days.. Yeah. School..

An update of the reading list i have after just 2 weeks of school:

Ec3101(Microeconomics Anaylsis 2):
Theory and Application of Intermediate Economics by Nicholson and Snyder
Chapters 1-4 and 7

Ec3102(Macroeconomics Anaylsis 2):
Macroeconomics by Mankiw
Chapters 3, 7 and 8 (self read chapters 1 and 2)

Ec3333(Financial Economics 1):
Investments by Bodie, Kane and Marcus
Chapters 5-9, 24 and 27 (Self read chapters 1 -4)

Ec3351(Public Finance 1):
Public Finance by Rosen and Gayer
Chapters 1-3

GEM2900 (Understanding Uncertainty and Stats Thinking):
Everyday Probability and Statistics:Health, Electrons, Gambling and War by Woolfson
Chapters 1-4 and 8

And not mentioning countless readings(to be measured in pounds these days) and additional TEXTS!

ARGGGGGGGG

I'm starting week 3..... with tutorials!!!!!!!!!!!.....

爱是因为有了你 part 3....

2008-07-29T16:36:00.001+08:00

隔天起来，鲁子翔已不在旁边。康琴坐了起来努力的想昨晚睡着后，鲁子翔似乎在耳边说了什么。

用棉被包住了正因早晨的凉风而颤抖的身体后，康琴从床上下来，拖着棉被走到客厅。不见鲁子翔的踪影便到厨房去，只见冰箱上贴了一张纸条。

亲爱的，

你昨晚很棒喔！哈哈。

本想叫你一起去晨跑，但看在你昨晚那么努力，外加上你可爱的睡脸，就不吵醒你了。我但会儿还得练跑，如果不达到预赛时的水准必定被教练骂得狗血淋头！

所以呢，妳就乖乖的呆在家里，我晨跑回来后再一起去吃早点。要乖喔！

你最爱的王子

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「你几时变成了我最爱的王子了？真不要脸！」

「不是吗？那你也不会惜憾我特地为你准备的早餐吧？」

「菠萝包！我要！但这里有卖马？」

「当然没有。是我晨跑后经过时摆脱老板的儿子帮我到隔壁街买的。他呀，收了钱还忘了帮我去买；看到我们来的时候才从后门溜出去买，真不可靠。」

「你啊！又在乱画着无谓的钱了。家产再多，也会被你败光的！」

「快吃吧，我等会儿还得到学校。而且你今天不是要回家吗？吃饱后我先送你回家。」

「可是我想看你练跑啊！看你有没有偷懒。哈哈。」

「你在我会分心。不要来。」

「知道了。可是，你最近都那么忙，不是在练跑吗？为什么会达不到水准被教练骂？」

「哈哈。。。那是开玩笑的啦。别放在心上。快吃吧，等会儿如果迟到就真的会被骂了。」

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TBC。。

爱是因为有了你 part 2....

2008-07-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

「那年你说会一直陪我到死的」康琴抱着鲁子翔说。

「那是被逼的！你哭成那样，人家还以为我欺负你呢。你真狡猾。」

「你后悔了？」

「哈哈。我们走吧，不然真的会死在树下。」

「哼！就知道你不愿意和我死在一块儿。你后悔和我在一起了！」康琴嘟着嘴，走出树阴，漫步在雷雨中。这时，鲁子翔从后头快速追上，接住康琴的手。

「快走吧，要不你又要感冒了。」

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「这么晚了，妳就留下来吧。宿舍的门都关了。」鲁子翔从身后抱着康琴；亲着脖子，手紧贴腹部。〔Scene removed〕

「不了，你们男人都是性动物。况且，我因该还在生气！」康琴陶醉的说道。

「宽恕我吧。瞧你陶醉的，我是在成全你喔。反正明天是假日，我也不必那么早去练习。」

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To be continued.. tired.

Anyways, extra ahem scenes are recoved to keep this place non-R(A) since anyone may land in my page. But if in any case i compile it into a script, everything i have in mind will be included. Esp scenes i skipped due to personal reasons/forgot.

梦境。。。

2008-07-28T18:17:00.000+08:00

梦，是预言吗？

你熟悉的身影，亲切的声音；那么多年了，为何再次出现在梦境里？那时国小的事了吧。为何你的声音和面貌都还是如此的熟悉？你是要告诉我什么吗？是要我找你吗？那你也得告诉我怎么才能再看见你啊！
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Anyways, if any of you happen to know Julianna Kenneth or her brother Joseph Kenneth, please drop me a msg. She should have gone on to Anderson Secondary and her brother Katong Secondary after graduating from our primary school, First Toa Payoh. We have lost contact for many years, really do hope to see them again. She is 23 this year and her bro 22. They should have another elder brother by the name of Julian Kenneth. So do drop me a msg if you know them!

Lucky draw?

2008-07-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

Anyways, below link is for your pleasure. Stand a chance to win some cosmetics.

http://www.shoppinglifestyle.com/microsite/200808_contest/index.asp?r=tifo`yjbohnjoAipunbjm/dpn

爱是因为有了你。。。

2008-07-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

在雨中牵着手，快速奔向树阴底下避雨。

在树下，康琴问「你这样牵着我的手，如果我被雷劈到，你也会死的喔！你这样还愿意吗？」

鲁子翔笑了笑说「那要是换成是我被雷比到，你因此而死，你还愿意吗？」

「我愿意！是我在问你，为何扯到我身上了？」

「但一个人死总比两个人抱在一起死来得好啊！」

「我是不会放开我的手的！如果我死，我一定要带着你一起走！」康琴撒娇。

「你好残忍。好啦，就一起死吧。」

那是在2004年的夏天，雅典奥运正要开幕的期间，帅气的鲁子翔转进了中正高中。身为班长的康琴负责照顾新学生，让它适应新环境。虽然起初引起许多女同学的亢奋，但后来也就接受了；谁叫康琴是班表，还是学校里美貌兼智慧并重的优秀生。

刚开始时，康琴蛮讨厌这一入学就闹得满城风雨的鲁子翔。整天调戏女同学，是个疯情万种的花花公子。虽然康琴起初对鲁子翔非常冷漠，但两人有个共同点，对运动的热诚；也因此成为了观看去奥运的拍档。

鲁子翔虽然很薄情，对女人都很轻浮；但从不对康琴下手，对她十分尊重。

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在毕业典礼后的那天，康琴对鲁子翔说，「一起上大学吧！」

鲁子翔皱了皱眉，「你自己去吧！大学不适合我。我想到运动学院去。况且，我还得当兵。所以拉，谢了，这两年的照顾！」

「但是我们不是说好要一起上大学的吗？不是要一起看2008的北京奥运吗？而且，如果我读医科的话，我们还是会一起毕业啊！」

「我仔细想过了，大学不能让我修我想要的科系。你就不同，你有美好的将来！加油吧！我们还是可以越看北京奥运啊！如果你到时候有时间。」

「那我和你一起到运动学院！」

「不行！医科是你多年的梦想，也是你父母的期盼！绝对不能放弃！况且，你不是已经收到入学邀请了吗？康琴。。。」

「但是，但是。。。」

眼泪涌出康琴的眼眶。鲁子翔不知所措的抱住了康琴。

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To be continued...

恐怖！变态！

2008-07-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

走在购物中心内，恐怖的清洁工人在身后不停跟踪；喃喃自语地说个不停。下了扶梯，只见恐怖人徘徊在扶梯，像是要下来；但不知隔着什么下不来，只拼命的望下楼。加快脚步，我走出了大楼。

快乐的时光总是比较快过去。。。

2008-07-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

多一个星期就不必再上班了！虽然巴不得马上不必再上班，但这也意味着不会在快乐声中和同事一起吃午餐！很快地个月的假期就要结束了。。要回到课堂！
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周末也是如此。逛了很多喜爱的可爱商店！看了爱看的电影！吃了爱吃的东西！真开心！但时间也好快就过了。。。有时间一定要再这样玩上一天！

Movies clocked this week!

2008-07-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

Watched 'The Dark Knight" and "Red Cliff"

For 'The Dark Knight".. hmmm.. i'll give it a 3.5/5 stars.. Maybe i was expecting too much and it din get thr.. but i the joker is real good, gives me goosebumps!.. cheers to the late Heath Ledger. He was great.

For "Red Cliff" i'll give it a 3.5/5 stars as well.. becos of the TO BE CONTINUED at the end.. so sad.. tot i will get to see the boats go on fire!... Takeshi is so shuai! but so not zhugeliang!.. Tony was so cool! but i like the guy tt acted Zhao Zhilong best!!

所有的爱情故事都。。。

2008-07-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

要历尽悲痛，伤心，才会感人。

没有悲欢离合的情景，现该酒是那么的不同，那么的显得不堪一击。

但，我讨厌伤心，我讨厌那思念着你爱的人的感觉。那当他不回复时那一针针刺进心里的感觉。爱情为何不可以只有快乐，只有喜悦？
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在细雨中漫步，可以是一个开心的事。但也可以是个很寂寞的事。

ナナの寂し

2008-07-12T23:08:00.001+08:00

回避了他的眼神。害怕心动；害怕心痛。这以是一个月没见后了，但还是无法望着伸的眼睛。
是怕看到背叛？但不就是已经打算把他当朋友了吗？为何听到他的事时还是有心痛的感觉。朋友找到幸福不是开为它感到高兴吗？但绝有种寂寞的感觉，很不是滋味。是我太自私了，想把他绑得死死的，永远在我身边边。毕竟不是扬在我院子里的宠物。
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轻浮的说了声再见就头也不回的离去。是去找幸子吧。两人快乐的手牵着手，再漂亮的霓虹灯下甜蜜的逛街。

「我不要！」

离开的身影，寂寞的笼罩，快要窒息了。装着不在意，喝着水，与他人愉快的交谈；但眼角却落寞的注视你离去的背影，心像被刺了一万刀。不要再让我看到你的背影了。这只会让我伤心，非常伤心。

娜娜 vs 奈奈

2008-07-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

是这样的吧。。

「不是不爱你，只是爱得不够；只是更爱她。。」是借口吧。把移情别恋美化了。把背叛刷清了。不管再如何的道歉，背叛了就没法恕罪。再多的关心也只会伤得越深；就放开吧，别想了！

是这样吧。。

呼则来，呼则去。。「你爱我就要牵就我。。」Call机不接，打Email不回，但一出现，就必须抛开一切陪你！「别拿麻烦的事来找我，否则我会翻脸不认人！」

是这样的吧。。

「我爱你但我又能给你什么呢？」难道就只能逃避，选择什么都不说？是胆小吗？还是爱得不够！是后者吧？别装出一幅伟大的样子！你并不伟大！只会伤得更深！爱就勇敢说出来! 别再让人家等了！

我哭了。真的哭了。隐藏在心里不想出彭的那部分。以为不会再在意，不可能吧，不可能当着什么都没发生。。

男人都是如此吗？。。。

NANA。。第8卷为止。。。

我变了，你呢？

2008-07-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

最近，我不停的反复思考，我是否变了？

我想是吧。。

我变了。变得自私，变得斤斤计较。。

是因岁月而改吗？还是环境？都有吧。。会因此不耐烦，乱发脾气。会为此哭泣，伤心。

这是成长吧。是人生！

我不开心！！！我不开心！！！这是我们双鱼座说不出的痛苦。。

我的开心来自你的笑容。。。

2008-07-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

我很开心吗？会吗？是我同事说的。

伤心是一天一天的过，快乐也是；不如就快乐吗！

但果真如此？是因为你吧。你的笑容。（不是指我的同事啦！）

你的一句话，一句回复，就能让我开心了。

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也好想走在巴黎街上！能到欧洲学习！走走！真羡慕！！

但到国外那么久，会想家吧！祝你早日凯旋归来！

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我把自己的Debit Card 收起来了。。要介质！！！！

祝你生日快乐。。。

2008-06-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

今天是我两位好友的生日！21/24岁生日！祝你们永远快乐幸福！人家说七年之痒，得来不易。我们认识了9年！！我们是不可思议的！！我们要一直联络！10 年20年。。。

我爱你们！！！！